SempurNakah AKu Di MAta mU?

DEB....

sempurnakah aku di matA kamu?

acap kali perkataan tu menerpa diriku...

aku x sesempurna die yg kau impikan,

aku x secantik pelangi yg kau dambakn,

kerna aku adalah aku....

andai waktu boley di putar arah putarannya,

andai mase kembali ke tempat asalnya,

akan ku ubah cara kehidupanku,

ke arah yg lebih terang dan bercahaya....

kelam malm makin menusuk,

tega kah aku merubah segalanya?

adush...terjelopok aku di meja study...kemanakh hilangya idea aku yg tadinya melimpah ruah...tanpa di undang kau berlegar legar di kotak fikiran aku...tp sekarang, ahhhhh kenapakah lamunan kosong yang memenuhi? aku terkesima...ape yg aku fikirkan sekarang bukanlah asignment...tp layanan perasaan yg menyelubungi...is it too boring to do an asigment....n now im speechless.....

SickNess

DEB...(dear En. Belog)

alahai...xlaratnye badan...start je bulan ni demam asek menemani badan...start lah dari selsema till demam...badan lak rase x rase cem suam2 kuku...tp rase hangat cem org tgh dilamun berchenta...adesh...ader ke temperature badan leh di compare kan dgn hangat org berchenta...urmmmmm xpatot pon...semalam da g klinik..but still d same...bile lar nk turun temperature badan nih...huwaaaaa...asok gue nk join my group members g MELAKA...rindu woooo..yela da lame x g melaka since grade DIP dolu2...

wahai c antibodi...sile lah anda cepat sembuh..sile lawan segala ape bakteria kt dlam badan ku ini....hukhukhuk...
hope me get well soon...so soon...n very2 soon...mao pegi MELAKA wooooo....

lots of hunny,

Misz Lila

bad mouth...

deaRest En. BElog Ku sayanG...

y pipels olways talked bad bout d othas pipels....is it dats d way they lived...aku xmengerti kadang2 pasal sume mende2 camnih...tp yg heran nye nape gak ade org yg dengki if some1 tuh berjaya lam idup...contohnya A xsuke n nyampah ngan B sebab die budak pintar n 'Best Student kat skula tuh'...so da credit tuk ci B ni famus...sedangkn A ngan B nih kawan dari kecik lagi (orang kate kawan sepermainan, tdo 1 bantal, kongsi makanan 1 pinggan, n mandi pong kadang2 same2)...kecian kt ci B ni...die xtau yg mber rapat (sahabat, kwan n teman mase kecik) ni dengki giler (ibarat perang yg xboleh nk dikawal) kat die...ci A ni pulak depan bukan giler baik (like a guardian angle)...tp bile kt blakang ci B ni mulut cem c****..ngumpat, fitnah, kutuk.....

hurm...tu sume lumrah...setiap org akan ade pengalman camnih...yela org yg ade PHD (perasaan Hasad Dengki) ni memg xlame..tup2 die akn kne kt batAng idung sendiri...haaa baru ko tau ape rase bile kawan makan kawan..BEST + SIOK kang...hahahah...(gelak macam kene loteri)

p/s: cite kt atas ni xde kene mengena dengan yg idup ataupun yg di alam barzakh...ni sume from my point of view...yela tibe2 teringat zaman skula2 dolu2...hehehhe

nak tido daaaaaa....T.A.T.A.-.T.I.T.I.-.T.U.T.U= NUNITE EBERI BADI

lots of love,

Misz Lila

d new dayz ever

selamt tegahari En. Belog ku sayang...ececece...poyo la tu org da biasekn die En. Belog...yela kang selalunya awak mane ader name...yela nk wat cane..awak x didaftarkan under Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara...huhuhu...memandangkn awak da officially become my 'Daily Diary' so pasni awak da di panggil sebagai En. Belog...uwaaaaa terharunya saya bile awak suke sy pgl awak dgn name tu...even though name tu xla begitu catchy sgt, but i hope u like it very much...as i like to write into u...huhuhu...

en. belog da makan?sy lapar la...da 2 hari xjamah nasi...yela..bile kua je segan nk mkn nasi..pe lagi...mihun jela aku kojakan...heheheheh...tp xpe kenyang gak my peyut ku ini....hurm memandangkan aku da start melalut nih...baik sy pk ape topik yg seswai tok hari ni...aalaaaa En. belog ni...xsabar la pulak...tgu la...idea blum dtg bergolek lg nih...xde title yg seswai lg untuk di bentangkn...hehehe...

haaaaa...en. belog...leh sy wat one confession...aish malu la plak (stahu aku xde la pemalu sgt...kehkehkeh)...actually kang kang kang...saya da jatuh hati la nga awak (wahai en. belog kui syg)...yela hari2 da ngadap awak..dulu memg la minat x minat je...pastu kawan sy cakap try la dulu go on wif u...bile i try, yg x habit da jadi habit tok i...yela bgun tdo je jumpe awk dulu,,,pastu b4 tdo pon jumpe awk dulu...mane xnye i jatuh hati dekat u En. Belog (cessss...kejadah punye da tangkap cintan abes siottttt...marah la my reality bf)...xpe yg reality nye memg da de...so u (en. belog) become my fantasy/invisible bf lar tok me, myself n moir....lau awk nk tau en. belog awk la tempat sy mencurahkn ksh syg, meuahkn perasaan yg x puas hati, mengadu bile sy gado gado, n menggedix pong nga awak gak...nsb baik la awk ni suke melayan sy kn..ape yg saya nk karutkn pon awk open je...ape omputeh cakap 'open minded n dun mind'...tuh yg i suko tuh...

urm...k la dulu..takat ni dulu noe...nti den pike dolu title ape yg gue nk coretkn n dinukilankn oleh hamba...adiosssssssz....

with love,

Misz Lila

to en. Belog

hahaha...tibe2 rase cem nk biasekn penulisan start 'DEAR EN. BELOG KU SAYANG'...so i will use that quote after this...hehehe...cant wait to write d next story...wait yea En. Belog ku sayang....

nitez...with love

Misz Lila

Love at One Sided

this is my point of view of love at one sided....adapted from japanese muvie (honey n Clover)...the characters are Yamada, Mayama n Nomiya....

it is pain to face wif u everyday...b'coz im standing here wif regret n knowing u loved otha person...it's hurt to tell u dat i really2 like u (totemo suki desu...was said by Yamada to Mayama)...the most thing dat i can't go through is dat u olwayz make dat person precious in ur life (anata mo koibito wa...)...y u never relize me..d person olwayz beside u..the person who olwayz hoping on u...the person who olwayz willing to make u smile in every day u r going through...the person who relize dat u will never b apart from that person..but this is who i am...the person who never care bout your feeling toward me..even u never try to love me..i dun care..the only that i care is dat im happy to be close to u, to be side wif u, to be the person u olwayz ask n talk,..but there are hopeless..even u are in front of me, i felt dat u r far away from me...when im try to get close to you, you like run away from me..there one thing dat i can do is to stare u far away...

yamada told mayama dat she like him (totemo suki desu)

nomiya asked yamada to be togehter wif him

but...when there a guy approach me, i never accept him (nomiya)...coz inside me is only u...it will be only u...n dat guy olwayz hoping dat my heart will open for him..he waited wif patient...im touched..im sad coz i can't accept him...even it's hurt for me to know dat u r not in this country anymore, but u olwayz in my heart..deepest from my heart...i know dat feeling...n one day, i realize dat i've to move on n try to like him...i thought dat he never waited me..but i was wrong..he said dat, let's be together (issho ni...)....

honey n clover

dats d end of ma story tonite...fell touched with Nomiya who really like Yamada...n Mayama is not the ending (wif otha person)..

p/s: really like this muvie...heheh

8 things to do for a perfect date...

1. sentiase berpenampilan kemas n punctual.


2. appreciating all d things that your partner do while dating wif u. coz both usaha dari korang akan membuatkn "date" korang best among da best.


3. jadikn the moment interesting as you could. focus on wut would be your partner says for both understanding in your relationship.


4. if you are not comfotable wif your partner, make sure he/she know supaya both side tidak menaruh harapan yg tinggi in future relationship.


5. make your own decision with who are you going to date. sebabnye, you are going to bond a relationship, not others.


6. olwayz think posostive in wut eva you do. before meet MR. RIte, semestinya kamu akn bertemu dengn beberapa org yg mungkin not suit with you. jgn jadikn alasan tersebut that made you less confidence in your relationship.


7. the best part is that you plan yourself your best moment wif him/her. either choose the best place as your destination to do activities wif he/she.


8. untuk mencari teman hidup bukanlah sesuatu yg 'gampang'. oleh itu seharusnya kamu berfikir secara profesional dan cubelah untuk bergaul dengan ramai kawan yg boleh menolong kamu untk mencari pasangan hidup.

P/s: haaaa...ni quote from Majalah remaja edisi 1/2/2011..untuk tips yg lebih terperinci layari lah http://www.karangkraf.com/remaja 

Pangkor mommento...

ish bile diigtkn blik cem lots of funny things happened to me last time...the best part was my big arguing wif ma belaf one ( MR. AZLIE)...hehehe...memg 3 days 2 night at pangkor make me realize that i really2 miss him so much...yerla i OFF my phone for 3 days 2 night...heheh..cian die...when im off to Jetty Lumut, switch on my phone...thingking that would be he worried bout me...my though was rite,,..there lots of miss call n texts from him...sorry B...time tuh AYG geram ngan B...yel sape xmrh B suke ejek2 AYG...hehehe (but he's full wif sense of humor n romantic person)...actually time tuh saje je tutp fon...bia die rase kehilangan i for 3 days 2 night...memg x disangkal lg die memg sgt xsenang duduk..YEZZA...my mission achieved to make him worried (ceh poyo gile aku nih...aku yg perasan atau memg aku ni manusia perasaan)..wut ever it is im eppy to be who i am...hehehehehe....yela ktorg lau xgaduh 1 hari memg x sah..sampai member2 n my classmate pon da tao sal ktorg...the +WEIRDO COUPLEZ+...hahahaah...

if i can...S.T.O.P B.R.E.A.T.H.I.N.G

SEGALA MASALAH BOLEH DIRUNGKAI SEKIRANYA KITE MEMPUNYAI SOLUSI YG TERBAIK...TETAPI ADAKAH DENGAN SELESAINYA MASALAH HILANGLAH SEGALA KEDUKAAN?


bagi diriku segala kemungkinan bagi semua kekeliruan akan berakhir dengan jalan penyelesaian....tetapi segala penyelesaian x semudah seperti yg disangka...sometimes WUT WE EXPECT IS ACTUALLY UNEXPECTED 




p/s: (Quote by Lila Ayane)...

~ 2.19 a.m - 2/2/2011 - wed ~

today...im still loss...dunno how to start yet...then dunno how to express my feeling rite now...there's to much problem come n go...but there is still no answer.....how bout to think...think think n still thinking wut i think than nuthin...hurm...however n how far i think bout it, im still pending...wut shud i do?wut thing that i think? wut is d matter wif my life? how would be my life next?...all these Q come out...but there is no A...

hope this nite can sleep better than last nite n tomorrow is much better than tonite...sleep...S.L.E.E.P...